At what cost is your happiness?

Happiness has become such a hard find entity for people that sometime I wonder does becoming happy really require so much or some times just by little things you can become happy.

People preach about happiness to other people ,give ideas how to become happy and how to bring happiness in your life.At the same time they are unable to see that what they themselves are doing is so much against what they are preaching.What can I say ,I do not know whether to laugh or throw the same preach back to the person with little bit of my own vision.

I have two little kids .They need me almost all the time for every thing and anything.Their need for me is not only necessary but that is how kids are.They want me to be around them all the time.I feel important , proud and lucky that they need me so badly because I know few years from now they wont care as much about me.At that time I will want them to come sit with me and spend some time from their busy schedule,studies however right now that seems a far-fetch thought.If I ever sit down to read the news paper my daughter will create some sort of task for me so that they are all over me again.It feels good at times ,however human desires can be suppressed only to a certain extent.The very moment I am away from them or not involved in any of their activities their chute little faces become so gloomy that I do not enjoy what ever I am doing.At that moment I think what ever personal activity I am doing is  worth it?Someway or the other my whole life will revolve around them now and I feel blessed that I am that fortunate.
These thoughts always take me to the conclusion that no matter what but I can not be happy at the cost of making my kids unhappy or stealing even a single moment from them for my personal use.