Space and Time !
These two things matter a lot in our life .Earlier I never thought about it, but now I feel like our happiness, celebration of happiness and joy they all depend on space and time.
By space and time, I mean the surrounding you are in at a certain time, the place where you are at, at any particular time. If you think about it deeply it all makes sense.
I have been postponing writing for a long time, in search of the real answer behind how time and space changes the emotions and needs. How time and space bring closeness to relationships. It amazes me at times. I never understood the depth of the concept behind time and space effecting the celebration of joy, perhaps I never encountered that situation in my life before, what I am experiencing now. Back at home, every small joy was a thing to celebrate, share your heart and double that joy.
Once you are away from home every thing changes. I am not saying all these because I am being nostalgic. It is because these days I am feeling a very strong urge to open up my heart to my parents as I used to. I can still do but it is not the same as talking on phone. The happiness, the excitement what you see on their face can never be compared with telephonic talk.
For example, there are certain things and experience, which happen only once a lifetime. The experience which if you tell your parents their joy will have no bounds. The feelings which you would like to talk with some one. But then again time and space does not allow you to do that and you keep that feeling inside your heart. The feeling, which should be some thing to celebrate, is deep inside your heart. No joy, no sharing no talking about it with any one. How does it feel?
Some times just a simple talk loosens up your heart and feels great inside. I do not know what prevents people to do that. Some times, I wonder if this is related to the closeness of relationship, or it is the fear, which you think, may adversely affect the relationship or it the fear that you may be judged. What stops you from opening your heart and talking freely to some one?
what a great post! Got me thinking. even I dun sometimes open up all that much to ppl who r very close to me...cos I fear being judged etc. I guess FEAR of rejection plays a big part.
ReplyDeleteKeshi.
hmm ,something similiar to what all i wrote earlier...its difficult for us to express ourself in front of other and espacially those to whom we love most, unable to express our feelings to them...may be its bcoz we are never encourage for thsi in our homes, may be our own nature which makes us isolate from other, may be its a fear that we dont knwo how other person react....
ReplyDeleteYou knwo what, your post just encourage me write a letter to my mom on the mother's day..i do stay away from my parents and always feel like opening my heart to them..telling how much importance they had in my life..
Anyways...Gud post...and ya sometimes its better not to search for any answers , they will come automatically...just live ur life..
Wonderful post Sharda.
ReplyDeleteI too feel that it is difficult to open up with your near& dear ones.
Sometimes it happens that you can open with your friends but not with your closest parents.
Nice writing.
Nice post.. well as keshi said.. its mainly the rejection of your views or feelings that cause not to open up!. Even thou you may feel to tell them.
ReplyDeletehey. hey. you are from ranchi!
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am so so happy to hear this. No wonder I was able to relate to your posts.
hey. have you deleted your earlier posts? Or is it my computer which is acting cranky?
ReplyDeleteThaz true shardha. Being far and close, makes a difference and a better satisfaction when yous ee in person than a little tech talk.
ReplyDeleteHi, I am still in India, my flight is on 14th night. Will be in blacksburg by 15th evening. And yeah, changed the template for a change. :)
ReplyDeleteI guess one is scared of being judged. Or how we are unable to meet expectations. Very nice post.
ReplyDeleteNice post...and thats the natural tendency of the people that they dont want to express thier weekness in from of others by reveling themselves in from of others..
ReplyDeleteTake care..